03.20.10
The first step…admitting you have a problem.
Hello, My name is Lindsey and I’m addicted to my son’s pacifier.
If there was a 12 step program for pacifier additions I would be the president. In late February/ early March Matt and I successfully weaned Dean from his pacifier and bottle. We were so proud of ourselves and thought we had done the best thing for our child. We were following doctors orders right? Dean did a fabulous job giving up his “Puh-Puh” and had almost forgotten it existed. There were a few times in the middle of the night that we would give in and let Dean have it (I valued sleep over the addictive nature of the paci) but for the most part it was gone. Until spring break…
Matt and I set out on our spring break journey at about 9PM. Dean was already asleep, we carried him from his crib to the car and gave him a pacifier to help him sleep during the drive home. He was great, slept like a champ and provided us a quiet ride to Houston. While we were home I continued to let him have it here and there in order to get in a nap or keep him happy around relatives. It was all good until we returned from the trip. Dean was hooked again. I tired to take it away but he cried louder, longer and harder…my heart broke. I did this to my baby, I made him miss his “puh-puh” again. As Dean would cry, I would cry feeling like the worst parent in the world. I mean who puts their child through this the first time only to make him go through it again?
Now, I fully admit that Dean wasn’t the one who wanted/needed or desired the paci until I gave it to him. Only for my own comfort did we give back what we had taken away. We’re beginning the weaning process again. This time for good. We’re going to throw away the pacifiers so that I can’t be tempted to give in. I’m addicted…I admit it…looking for a 12 step or rehab program now… see you in 90 days!
Dean loves his “Puh-Puh”
